Wednesday, March 31, 2010


things are FINALLY looking up :3 yesterday I was sad/depressed all day but chris came by later and we watched the new family guy and nostalgia critic and It was really nice and sweet and exactly what I needed to cheer me up, I'm excited because I'm almost positive that he is going to come back. I could be wrong so thats why i'm not keeping my hopes up to high but I need to stay positive!

Monday, March 29, 2010

bitches ;o

Ok so I know I over react to a lot of shit that I really shouldn 't upset myself over, but when I know a girl who cheats on her boyfriends starts hitting on my ex, whom I'm not over and still want back it really pisses me off. I know that he doesn't like her that way, he even said yesterday that she kept talking to him and bugging and it he was getting really pissed off at her, so it's not him i'm pissed off at for once, tis her. she JUST broke up w/ her bf, and then instantly starts hitting on chris cause she thinks she can get some action cause she thinks i'm out the picture. And maybe if she wasn't such a slut I wouldn't be so pissed off, god shit like this gives me a headache

Saturday, March 27, 2010

last night

I was sooooo hungry last night, so me and cassie and this guy that we had to "entertain" came with us. i have to explain here why we were entertaining him. Cassie's friends boyfriend came up to see her and he brought his friend along with him, soo she wanted time with her man so we had to keep him busy, anyways xD we WERE going to go to mcd's but they were fuggin closed. so he took us in his truck and went to see if burger king was open. It wasn't. sooo we ended up at a gas station and I finally got some food. the guy, bradon, was kind of cute, waaaay to much of a hick/mainer for me though xD plus he has a crush on cassie, oh well. still waiting for chris to make up his mind

Friday, March 26, 2010

no more!!

I have withdrawn from my stupid fucking math class, thank god. such a big stress relief.
working on papers this weekend, fun fun :p

Tuesday, March 23, 2010


as I was pulling the shower curtain back I thought I saw a person standing in the corner of my stall thingy, and I almost screamed till I realized it was my clothes hanging from the wall xD

Sunday, March 21, 2010


i'm so fucking pissed, at everything, it's not even funny.......

Saturday, March 20, 2010


Just spilled most of my febreeze all over the floor, and almost stepped in it w/ an open cut on my foot, that would have felt freaking amazing, not.
going to meet up w/ my math tutor and then probly spending the night w/ cassandra, then off to a hockey game tomorrow

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

this week

Is going by much faster than last week, thank god XD I think i'm going to move into my room tonight and try and see if I can actually sleep in there. I don't want to be a burben to others anymore. I have write a paper this weekend, and start on another, fun fun. and get a music video done by friday and other shit I don't care about anymore.

Sunday, March 14, 2010

last night I ran around walmart w/ cassie and her two gay friends to get them condoms and other things xD then her and I came back to the room to trash talk chris, which was fun. then we invited stuart over, he is so fucking funny. then her gay friend came in all crazy on monster and we went into his room w/ his bf and basically has an orgy on his floor xD then we put in shrek the third and i fell alseep around 2/

Thursday, March 11, 2010


I have a lot of work coming up but I can't bring myself to do any of it.
Chris and I are having supper together tomorrow , hope all goes well.
I wish men weren't so stubborn and would listen to us women when we try and talk things out!!

Monday, March 8, 2010


Better is what I am aiming for. Not to forget everything. not to forget about him. But such give my heart some time to heal and love someone new if it never works for us again. A tiny piece of my heart has hope we will work things out in the future, but the rest of my heart knows that It can never be the way it was between us when we first started. there was so much stress put on the relationship right from the start and that hurt us a lot. I can't type much now cause I will upset myself but I will sometime. I'm hanging out with Mylana later and doing some homework, should help my mind off this.

Sunday, March 7, 2010


As I was taking a walk I went through the parking lot and there was this car parked between to sings that read "don't park car between two sings" fucking lol.
I want to know how they did it xD and I saw some window that had an inuyasha plushie hanging in it.
It's so nice out I don't wanna be stuck inside doing homework :p hope the weather stays this way!!

Saturday, March 6, 2010

what am I supposed to do

I have no motivation to do anything, It's so nice out and I can't even bring myself to get out of bed.....


So Chris decided to break up with me last night.....
Don't know what else to say about it, he said he is going to take a week or two to think about if he is willing to try again.
fucking great....

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

So Ashley doesn't kill me xD

This week would have been a good one if I hadn't started it by failing miserably on the math test. I felt so fucking dumb sitting there staring at it for 60 minutes, wishing my brain for fucking once would remember math shit >.> ugh just frustrates me to no end. the only reason i'm taking the freaking course is cause it's a stupid gen ed requirement. If its not required to be in my major I shouldn't have to take, i'm going to horrible, barley pass the class and have my GPA go down because of it and get less scholarships. I plan on getting up early tomorrow and going to the help center to talk about getting a tutor, who can hopefully help me.

Ok onto something else. I hope I don't tweak out when i present in english on friday. I do fine when I'm I have other people standing up there with me but by myself I get super nervous and talk to fast and skip over crap. which is why I have videos to show to eat up some time, I don't care if its shorter than everyone elses, as long as I can stay calm and keep myself from passing out D: I really don't want to do that again already, people around campus will think i'm a freak, the girl who is always passing out.

I have to start working on my science paper, which shouldn't be to bad, its basically writing 5-10 pages worth of facts that someone else already came up with. but I have to start thinking about putting together my music video for english and the 10 pages paper we have to write, I swear my english teacher is trying to kill meeeeeee......

Monday, March 1, 2010


Thats how I feel
because I am stupid
Hate my stupid brain that can't do math